Today I came to my Heavenly Father with a burden of sin. Conviction of my sin weighed heavy on my soul.
Will your mercy and your forgiveness have a limit? Will it run out?
I know the Biblical, Theological, head-truth answer to my heart's question: Of course not!! Never!
When it says His love as unfailing in Scripture, does it mean anything less than un-failing? When it says eternal, can it mean less than eternal? When it speaks of His faithfulness being as high or long as the heavens? Or, His love being as deep as the oceans?
When the Word of God tells me that God's mercies are new every morning, could He possibly be out of fresh mercy for today? Could it be that He might finally say, 'Nope, not this morning, I am afraid.
Of course not! ...No! Never!
Each unfailing. All boundless, unconditional, faithful and steadfast. Always enduring and eternal. Always new and freshly offered. This, this!, is the truth of the matter...
And yet my heart wondered this morning, When will your grace to me run out? When will you be fed-up with my wandering heart? When will it be the "last straw"?
In the very moment of wondering, my Father answered this morning with a in-my-face real life example.
Here, let me show you... He whispered.
As I was praying and seeking and wondering, right then!, my son disobeyed me. Again. Same disobedience. How many times have we talked about this? How many times have I reprimanded him and corrected his behavior. He was doing it again... I could hear him in the other room. Again.
Does your love and grace run out for your son? my kind Father whispered into my aching, sinful heart.
Are you done with him, your sweet boy? Is this the last straw? You done loving him, Stephanie?
No, Lord! May it never be!! my heart welled up with deep truth and emotion... Of course not!! Never!!
And He reminds me of this beautiful, theological, Biblical truth ...right in my today-home.
"If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask." (Matthew 7:11)
Oh! How He surprises me with His eternal, everlasting, ever reaching love!! Oh how He loves us!! Oh how gracious our gentle, kind and loving Father is!! I am struck a new today... Fresh grace. Fresh mercy. Fresh love. ....that will never run out.
"I know not a word which can express the surprise and wonder our souls ought to feel at God's goodness to us. Our hearts playing the harlot; our lives far from perfect; our faith, almost blown out; our unbelief often prevailing; our pride lifting up its accursed head; our patience a poor sickly plant, almost nipped by one night's frost; our courage little better than cowardice; our love lukewarmness; are ardor but as ice -- oh, my dear brethren!... we should indeed be surprised that the sun of divine grace should continue so perpetually to shine upon us, and that the abundance of heaven's mercy should be revealed in us." - Charles Spurgeon